Today was one of those days where I was feeling a bit overwhelmed. I felt a little broken and I began to question myself and all the decisions I've made thus far in my life that have brought me to this point of utter loss of control. Yes, I realize I let my emotions spiral to a pretty dramatic place. But haven't you ever had one of those days? The kind of day that seems to have more and more go wrong the longer it goes on. The kind of day where you wish you would have just stayed in bed. It was one of those. Needless to say, I hit a low point. I couldn't reasonably contain the amount of emotions that were hitting me so I shut myself in my closet and let myself cry it out. During this display of emotion, I knew that I was being overly dramatic. Logically I knew that I didn't have it nearly as bad as others out there, but I was upset with my situation and the choices I made that put me in the position I was in and I just wanted to cry.
To be honest, this isn't a normal occurrence for me. I think part of it was because I was exhausted, since my massive sun burn has not allowed me a full nights sleep the last three nights and part of it was complete frustration. I am one of those... I cry when I am frustrated. So anyway, after I cried it out I took a few deep breaths. Had a conversation with God. Evaluated my situation. Talked to my dad and made plans to face one of the bigger issues tomorrow morning.
It isn't healthy to allow our emotions to take the drivers seat. They are too easily swayed, misleading and often effected by false information. However, it is OK to express them just don't dwell on them. Take a step back and figure out the truth of your situation. There is always a way to turn something around, there is always a change you can make to insert good into your life. Say a prayer, talk to someone you trust and make a plan. Don't just allow yourself to steep in the despair, take action.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7